“Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow has not yet come. We have only today. Let us begin.”
– Mother Teresa
A friend posted something on facebook and tagged me on it (as friends are wont to do :) ) and it was in regards to remembering perspective. That, how you view something in this moment, can and will change in the next moment. And that sometimes you simply have to put something down and then think about it again. Today I walked into work and while standing on University, waiting to cross over Queen, I noticed some light. I couldn’t resist, so instead of continuing my walk south on University, I crossed to the middle of University and Queen and shot the light. Then I walked down the middle University and was taken aback at how ‘different’ it looked. I was looking at my regular morning walk, from a different perspective and appreciating it more. Pretty cool huh?
It’s that moment when you’ve (I) held on long enough that you start to see that the vision can become a reality. It’s not easy getting here. There are many failed trys, but it’s so good when you start to see a new, happier, reality.
It seems I have the deepest thoughts when I’m taking a shower. Maybe because it’s one of the few times now-adays, that I am truly ‘dis-connected’. And this thought is really directed at myself. I’ve set a fitness goal for myself and I’ve started to see that first glimmer of reality. That what I’m doing is working and that if I keep at it, I will reach my goal. And no-one knows how hard that is, better than me (well, maybe someone does…), but I know it’s really really hard. And over the past
two years, no make that three years!, I have been *trying* to get fit and failing. So many things conspire to make it not happen and I don’t really know why it does eventually start working. Why all of a sudden you start believing. Maybe it’s serendipity, when everything you’ve been trying all of a sudden aligns just right and this time it sticks. Or maybe you just get tired of it not working. I don’t know. I just know that when it does start happening. Go with it. Just go.
‘Give and take’. Sometimes you take. And sometimes, you gotta give.
And I think… I think right now, I’m entering a time to take. Take some time for myself that is. To worry about my problems or not. And do what I want, or not. Whatever it is, I’m gonna get a let selfish and think about me a little bit more. Not to say, that I’m going to become this horrible self-concerned, greedy person, but that I’ll just be freer at doing things just for me. It is winter after-all and the perfect time to rejuvenate and take that time. I hope that’s okay with you :)
Although I grew up attending Sunday School and celebrating Christmas, I now find that I don’t enjoy the commercialism of the ‘holiday’ (the idea of going into a mall at this time is heart stopping), am not particularly religious and actually love some of the tenents of Festivus. So, Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays and ‘Happy Festivus, for the Rest of Us’! Ya, you know the episode of Seinfeld that I’m talking ’bout.
P.S. I made this photo of the lovely table settings at my sister’s house, for the holidays. Trust me, in focus, it’s beautiful! :)
Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself. – George Bernard Shaw
And so the task is at hand. And the power is in your hands. Or I should say my hands.
Who do I really want to be? ‘Cause I will be honest and say, that I don’t know yet. I have an inkling and I am moving in the direction, but it feels slow, un-sure. Still afraid to really boldly say ‘THIS IS ME’. This is the me I want to be. Yesterday I said to myself “Start moving towards those things that attract you, authentically. Move away from those that don’t. Become who you yearn to be.” And I think that was, no is, a creative thought. Something inside telling me, ‘This is what you have to do.’ And maybe it is as easy as just starting to move away, and stop doing the things you might think you have to and just do what you like.
This Ted Talk (how I love these!), talks about how your unconscious mind is really making the decisions. And that ‘…Most of the time BELIEF requires EVIDENCE to make a change.’ So my questions are: How do you change your unconscious mind? And HOW do you get that evidence? Hmmm…. For now, I will just keep making portraits and seeing and documenting the light ’cause that is what I know I like for sure and start moving more into my own authenticity :)